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What do girls think about love?[I am not girl]

I am not able to sleep, as result I am writing this post. This blog has been ditched for quite long.

I am not sure whether it is right to write this post, because I have no idea whether I am correct or not. But anyway, it is just my thought so I want to speak it up. 

I am wondering of what do girls think about love? One thing that shot into my mind is that girls think love as what is written in the novel, fairy tale and dramas (korean, japanese, taiwan, china, singapore and hongkong) 

In fact, in the real life, I have never seen love story realised as in novel or dramas. One thing for sure that what will girls have on their mind when they finish watching drama must be "why my bf not like that ah? why is that girl so lucky? woahh... that girl and his bf ate at restaurant in paris with Eiffel Tower as their background view. I wish to become like her because his bf gave him car, condo, diamond ring and 'some' other gifts" 

All those are nothing but a feeling of envy when his bf have not done anything like that to her before. 

From envying, they will move on to the next stage.... Expecting. After they envied, they will expect the bf will do the same thing as what they have watched on the movie, listened from the friends and read from novels. There are two types of expectation that girls have :

1. Expecting, but do not want to say

2. Expecting and say it that they want this and they want that

Expectation no 2 will cause problems to bf if he is not able to realised her wish. She will nag and nag and nag until bf feel tired. The problem with the expectation no 2 is that she is not making bf become his ownself. Bf realise her wishes, that is because he was expected and is informed on what he should do to make gf happy. Well, that is not him, and it is actually the girls who make herself happy.

Expectation no 1 is a bit better, we are not nagged simply because they do not speak what they wish. Apart from that, if we have done something that girls are expecting without girls telling us what to do, we have done it because it is from our ownself will not girls' will. Eventually, girls are funny. When they have waited too long for the expectation to be realised, they will become expectation no 2, telling his bf what she wants. 

What I was trying to say in this post is that, please do not expect too much and go back to real life. When you start expecting, remind on yourself how you love your bf for the first time and why you say yes when your bf asked you to be his gf. 

If let's say that you accept your bf because you expect him to realise your fairy tale wishes. It is just wrong. You must accept him because what he has done to you NOT what he will do to you.

I am not a girl, so I have no right to say what they are thinking. This little piece of my mind is just based on my analysis towards the evidences. My analysis could be right and could be wrong. 

NOTE : This post is not intended to address specific person

What's done is done

I am back. Few days ago I just sent my obu project. Today after the few days I sent my project, I found out how ridiculous my project is. I want to amend some words on my project but it's not possible anymore. There is only one sentence that can make me feel at ease, 'what's done is done.' 

I am willing to accept failure grade for my clumsiness. 

Another day has gone

Well... another day has gone and I have yet to study my papers. There was Education and Career Fair 2009 held on 5-8 of March.  I was quite busy helping ACCA Singapore to promote ACCA. It was a good experience to have, where I can listen to what their life experience and also how they heard ACCA from. Apparently most of the enquirers are holding either engineering bachelor degree, IT degree or business administration. 

I am just wondering why on earth engineering and IT students would like to ACCA. From my opinion it is hell unrelated subject with accounting. Correct me if I am wrong. 

Today is the shittest day on my entire week. I was counselled on 'what you should do to pass on your ACCA exam' by non ACCA student. I really appreaciate his so called 'counselling session' but come on I know what to do with my own exam. I am okay to be advised from someone that has already done the papers before. But I believe this is a bit too much even the advice came from top university student. Even if he is Albert Einsten, I will still wondering whether his advice would help me on my study. 

Today I just read news that there was another incident of NTU student killing himself again. Apparently this guy is the other guy's senior, who was 'believed' jumped off from the building.  

Some updates

Today I heard very shocking news from Singapore. An Indonesian student from Nanyang Technology University commited suicide after he stabbed his professor. According to the news that I have learnt, this guy is very smart in his mathematics and he joined International Mathematics Olympic. After all, he is not that smart because doing such a foolish act, commiting suicide. It is very saddening news because that guy is alread in his final year and 3 months away to complete his study. The reason on why he is doing that is still unknown. 

Singapore has been showered by rains these few days. It is quite irritating as because I have to bring umbrella everywhere. Anyway for the coming days, I might be busier than my normal days. I have to catch up with my studies and do some volunteer works ( I am doing it because i want to get the benefit)

That's all for today. 

updates: he did that because his scholarship was revoked because his mark is dropping 

Classic

This few days I have been listening to classic song and watching classic comedy show. They are so marvelous and I am recommending you guys to watch and listen to it.

I watched Eddie Murphy Delirious(1983) and Raw(1987). Not that old show but I wasn't born yet! So I considered it as an oldies. I haven't finish watching it though. :)

It's a talk show not a movie show, where in this movie Eddie Murpy will make some jokes. Oh, I must warned you guys before watching it. The show contains a lot of foul languages, so now you can expect what jokes he can make. Watch it guys!

The classic song that I talked about is from Bee Gees. Currently, I like their songs called "Staying Alive", "Alone", "More than a Woman" and "Massachusetts". Frankly speaking, I dont know what they are talking about in the song. It's quite difficult to listen to their lyric. Trust me! but if you guys can catch what they are singing, I admire you. Staying Alive and Alone are the difficult one. Well, that's currently Bee Gees songs that I like. Probably will like more songs from them, since I haven't listen the rest of their songs.

So little time with

So many things need to be done. Fiuh.. there are exactly 101 days left for me to revise all 4 papers. I have been procrastinating my study these past few days. Maybe it has become the habit for me to do that. Instead of studying, I am writing this post. Lazy symptom is here!

GRR!!!

I never knew that publishing post to our blog is that troublesome!!

This is what happened when ACCA had picked up the wrong candidates into their failure list

Today my lecturer showed me a very good article found on BBC news, here is the article

'Jihad on accountants' man jailed

A man has been jailed for two years for sending dozens of letters to mosques around the UK urging their members to launch terror attacks on accountants. Malcolm Hodges, 44, from Sittingbourne, Kent, bore a "festering grudge" against professional accountancy bodies more than a decade after he failed an exam. The Old Bailey heard he claimed in the letters, sent in November 2006, he was a follower of Osama bin Laden. He pleaded guilty on Tuesday to recklessly encouraging terrorism. The court was told he wrote in the letters: "Brothers, you are right to kill the infidels but you are making a mistake to try to attack planes and other targets." He said Muslims should instead focus their "jihad" on four accountancy bodies. "Brothers, striking at these targets will be striking at the infidels where it hurts most," he said. 'Real risk' Paul Taylor, prosecuting, said Hodges had never accepted that he failed an exam set by the Association of Chartered Certified Accountants (ACCA) in 1998 and had been in dispute with the organisation ever since. The court heard the ACCA took the threats seriously and spent more than £140,000 on security measures. David Burgess, defending, said Hodges had nursed his obsession for years and sent letters to the royal family, the Prime Minister and the Chancellor seeking redress for the "grave injustice" done to him. He was due to be married in May last year but his fiancée returned home to the United States after his arrest. Judge Jeremy Roberts told Hodges: "There was a real risk that if one of your letters had fallen into the wrong hands there might have been a terrorist atrocity and people might have been killed or seriously injured." But he accepted Hodges, from London Road, Teynham, suffered from a "seriously abnormal mental condition" likely to be "some form of personality disorder".  Source : http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/england/7253780.stm

WORST YEAR EVER but....

First of all, I am going to write this blog with the broken english, so please pardon me if I have grammatical error and so on. I am just a human being, bound to make mistake, but of course i will correct it if I have done something wrong. By starting to write blog, I will have chance to improve my english as well. 

Well.. year 2009 could be my worst year in the history of my life. It was started in the February, where all the bad things being tested on me such as failing 2 papers at once and some 'other' stuffs that i would like it to be remained secret.

When I learned that I fail my exam, I feel so bad about it as because i may need to delay my career life. Of course, when you delay your career, you will still have to be dependant to your parents which is something that i really don't want to be. 

Yes.. The problems are so stressful.And when I feel stress i like to hurt myself physically or listen to music as loud as possible. Amazingly, it works pretty well on me. I know it's not gonna solve the problems, but I need to relieve myself sometimes. After a while I know that hurting yourself physically is kinda stupid, so I had stopped doing it and move to listening to music loudly. Of course this would cause a hearing problem as well. 

Anyway, this semester I am going to take 4 papers, which I know it's kinda heavy to complete all. I would like to say thanks to my friends who have already supported me in this decision. Although some of them suggesting me not to take 4 papers at once. I wanted to say thank you too probably they don't want me to be so stress out and fail again. 

I met my lecturer yesterday, he is very good lecturer. Although he knew that I failed 2 papers from his class, he is still encouraging me to meet him if I need any help. Frankly speaking, I have never been treated this way from my study in Indonesia and also Malaysia. 

Lastly, although this may be the worst depressing year and I believe this will be the year that I will learn the most.